I'm at the end of my teather & i don't know what to do anymore I'm just sick to the absolute back teeth of life. I have had the most sucky life you could imagine I've been through 9 trauma's in 10 years heartbreak twice, violent sexual abuse & assault that went on for a year & a half. I went through severe bullying at school which at one point led to me nearly dying!

 they stole my asthma inhalers & i tried to run after them but collapsed & had a severe asthma attack 

I have suffered domestic violence at the hands of both my parents (my mum even tried to kill dad & me) I suffered constant ilness for the 1st 11 years of my life, got better then ended up with a severe illness which left me bedridden for 18 weeks, I have been in a huge crash, witnessed my nana deteriorate from breast cancer & saw her just hours before she died which i think is one of the reasons i'm petrified of death

 i went through 7 berevements in a space of 4 years.
 
 i was taken into foster care just after my nana (the one with cancer) died I have been close to death in many different bad situations in my life such as nearly been killed, illness & bad reactions to medication etc...

I suffer anxiety, depression, stress have bee through one nervous breakdown & am going through a 2nd due to nearly being murdered & having my heart broken by the love of my life
 
 people are always using me abusing me & mistreating me in some way or another, last year my aunt was diagnosed with cancer which was terrible for me & on one occasion whilst i was visiting her my uncle kept making disgusting lewd remarks to me and he tried to force himself onto me I was also very ill myself at the time & suffering extreme anxiety, stress & panic attacks
 
I have no true friends, I'm stuck indoors most of the time due to disabilites (i have scoliosis, hypermobility, and arthritis) I also only get £38 a week (which every fortnight have to give mum 38 for board) so i myself get just £38 a fortnight to myself.

I am now being bullied online and i'm very sad & don't know what to do with myself anymore I just can't take anymore crap in my life there's more shit i've had to deal with besides what i've mentioned but i'd be here all day believe me!!! can someone please help me i'm in such a horrendous mess emotionally i can't take it anymore : (